I Choose Me

I chose me,
So I broke free from your betrayal and lies.
I chose self-love,
So I’d stop crying my eyes out at night.

I chose transparency,
So that I could finally be understood.
I chose mental health,
Because no person ever would.

I chose rebirth,
So that I could finally spread my wings and fly like a bird.
I chose proof,
Because your silence was louder than words.

I chose courage,
After years, I finally told my family & friends the truth.
I chose strength,
I’ll never again succumb to anyone’s abuse.

I chose forgiveness,
Go kill yourself were the words that made me rethink my life.
I chose enlightenment,
Hate is only a reflection of who people are truly inside.

I chose respect,
By realizing all the love I am deserving of,
I chose compassion,
By reminding myself that I am worthy enough.

I chose integrity,
Let them go if they think the grass is greener on the other side.
I chose values,
I will wait for someone who waters my grass and tries.

I chose peace,
The hate of you abandoning us no longer grows,
I chose happiness,
So I had to learn a hard lesson of how to let go,

I chose honesty,
By forgiving myself so that I could finally breathe.
I chose to live,
I travelled to feel the sand and smell the sea.

I chose dignity,
So I’d stop feeling insecure about why they didn’t stay.
I chose truth,
Accepting I may never get closure and that’s okay.

I chose ambition,
So I pushed myself to work towards my goals.
I chose resilience,
By rediscovering the depths of my own soul.

I chose growth,
By surrounding myself with people who are self-aware,
I chose to challenge,
Because being too comfortable is my nightmare.

I chose determination,
Because I believe it’s not about the size of your home.
I chose kindness,
Because I rather do good than care about what I own.

I chose risk,
So I’m sorry that I’m not your average girl.
I chose to be fearless,
Because there’s so much more to do in this world.

I chose to surrender,
Ironically known as the solo traveller, the one thing I couldn’t do alone.
I chose hope,
By admitting I need help, I can’t do this on my own.

I chose to fight,
From therapy, paramedics, meds for my stupid brain.
I chose healing,
I don’t want to die, I just want to stop feeling pain.

I choose to be heard,
So now I want you to please listen and pay attention.
I’m 30 and still working on myself,
Learning to love all my perfect imperfections.

Please take these examples of why I chose me,
Because if I did it, I truly believe you can too.
So let me ask you this, my darling girl,
When will you choose you?
- vl